first dive

the memory is clear.

legs shaking so hard the diving board squeaked, water so deep i couldn’t fathom being able to swim up and away from its bottom, apathetic swim teacher waiting below.

i stood there for a long while, my mom on the sidelines eyes hidden behind a paperback. tick, tock. tick, tock. waiting and hoping the lesson would end.

no such luck. peripheral swim teacher rushes the board, hoists me up and drops me. JUST. LIKE. THAT. splash, flail, panic and sputter back to the top.


feeling the same now. no diving board this time. instead a blinking cursor and a mind filled with colliding words and ideas.

a few years ago, i dragged my very uncoordinated self through a triathlon to show my kids that even the the ones picked last in gym can be champs. and now i'm here - too shy to say "writer", but brave enough to write.


this first post is dedicated to k at the kids are alright with thanks for rushing the diving board

and pushing me off.


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Elan Morgan

Elan Morgan is a writer and web designer who works through Elan.Works and is a designer and content editor at GenderAvenger. They have been seen in the Globe & Mail, Best Health, Woman's Day, and Flow magazines and at TEDxRegina and on CBC News and Radio. They believe in and work to grow both personal and professional quality, genuine community, and meaningful content online.