i will always remember

We all have them.

Songs, like a familiar scent, that take us back to moments lost in the shuffle of present day. 

The year was 1992. I was living away from home for the first time, in a building filled with other first-year students going through the same. There are so many songs that take me back to that time. We didn't have iPODS; music played was music shared. 

Somebody on our floor bought the soundtrack to "The Bodyguard", I don't remember who.  I do know a bunch of us had gone to see it on a Sunday afternoon, to distract ourselves from studying. It was Track 1 that was played on repeat. We all learned the words, boys and girls, and we all loved to belt out our best falsettos as we sang it with all our might. We laughed and perhaps, in the quiet of night, we cried.

It was the second semester. So much of what we knew about ourselves had changed. It was a year of incredible growth and realizations. And "I Will Always Love you" was, in many ways, the perfect anthem.




During that year, our first away from home, many of us closed chapters and left them behind. It's true, we were young. But saying good bye to first loves, outgrowing longstanding friendships, coming out to our friends; we all changed. 

When I think of the girl I was, sitting in a dorm room listening to Whitney Houston sing, I feel joy. I see a girl who was moving away from the person everyone expected her to be and closer to the woman I am now; a person I am proud of. And today, as I listen to this song again, I feel deep sadness that this incredible artist, mother, daughter and friend was lost during her struggle to do the same. 


Elan Morgan

Elan Morgan is a writer and web designer who works through Elan.Works and is a designer and content editor at GenderAvenger. They have been seen in the Globe & Mail, Best Health, Woman's Day, and Flow magazines and at TEDxRegina and on CBC News and Radio. They believe in and work to grow both personal and professional quality, genuine community, and meaningful content online.